I almost quit.
Yup! I almost quit. I felt absolutely undermined, ripped apart and degraded.
The back story
I was minding my own business this summer, when I received a little marketing piece about how to boost how many folks were seeing my content, and therefore bring in more revenue and more sales- while of course spreading more healing.
I bit, I was like "Well, I would like to be busier"
Oh Boy, that was my first mistake.
I jumped on this phone call with this "coach" and listened to what she had to say.
First comment was- I'm too cheap, and I had to laugh. Obviously this girl has had NO idea what it's like to live a life where you are an average American, because I know I am priced fairly. She continues on about how my blog is degrading my business, that people are just reading my blog and getting the healing they need, then leaving my website (Isn't that the point?!)
Then my website was too pretty, and I was too active on Social Media... the list goes on and on.
After some chatting, I came to the conclusion the only reason they want me on their "team" is to use me as a trophy. She said multiple times "We've never had a Shaman before!"
After I hung up the phone- I felt completely undermined. My successful group, my blog, my email newsletter, everything that I had built up was just "ripped down" by an industry professional. The only aspect of my business she wanted to keep, was my name, and my branding colors.
All in the name of "healing".
I cried. I am not going to lie one bit- I cried.
I cried, I contemplated taking everything down and quitting on the spot. But then I remembered why I began offering sessions to people in the first place.
It wasn't to make a ton of money- because lets be honest, I don't.
It wasn't to become YouTube famous, because lets be honest- I'm not and I probably won't be
It was because I journeyed through my dark night, and I wanted to help other people journey through their dark times- because I have an amazing ability and I should use it to help others heal and grow.
From the moment I got on the phone with her- I was feeling uncomfortable. I should had known from the get go that this woman was up to no good- and one month of coaching, totaling $10,000 really hammered home that point to me.
Because being a Shaman has nothing to do with how much money I can make off of my skills- does that mean I work for free? NO
But does that mean that I charge thousands of dollars for one session? Absolutely not. Healing is healing, and healing shouldn't be a luxury of the rich. I believe that no matter your income, your race, your gender, your beliefs or your age, healing should be allowed to you.
That is why I price myself fairly. That is why I go above and beyond to bring free messages via my blog, my newsletter, my YouTube and my Facebook group.
This is my life path, and I refuse to allow someone who is full of greed and hungry consume my light.
Guys- this took me two months to be able to talk to you about. This took some work to heal what this woman made me feel. It was a process, and I am glad that she came into my life.
Because it tested me if this is what I really want to be doing. And the answer was right in front of me.
At the end of the day- whats important is that we trust our intuition. When our gut tells us "This seems fishy" listen to it. I wish I had listened to mine, because it would had saved me some heart ache for sure! But more importantly, trusting our intuitions will never lead us astray- because our intuition is a message directly from our spirit guides, and they always want us to reach our highest intentions.