Trying to compete in a world you don't belong in is fighting the natural law, universal instruction of nature. Our souls are destined to be something, to have passions, love, individuality, each soul existing within their exact authentic frequency. It's when we are filled with light when we shine and allow our authentic frequency to show through all aspects of our lives.

We are all created and destined to be who we authentically are. The journey of life isn't learning wisdom or knowledge, it's unlearning all the toxic and hurtful thoughts, actions, emotions, or rituals picked up in toxic environments. The journey of life is either embracing our trauma or healing from it.

We like to bury our heads in the sand. We break the medicine wheel of healing, and we bury one or many of the aspects of our self with that trauma. (Mental, Physical, Emotional, Spiritual).Ostrich sickness is what I call this in my mind when I catch myself doing this, pretending everything is okay. The denial of the problems or wounds, and the "toughen up" mentality once it's time to rest and recover. The natural law of the land tells us how to find alignment with the universal law, by living in alignment with the medicine wheel, the seasons, the natural flow of the sun, the moon, and the stars. All created by The Creator to allow us to keep track of time.

Burying our traumas and emotions deep within the depths of our souls, emotions of shame, betrayal and guilt can fester into spiritual sickness that consumes us from the inside out. We fall into theses depths of our souls when we experience life. A life, boy is it rated R. There's rape, murder, genocide, cursing, witchcraft, drugs, alcohol. addiction, rock & roll, and war. Lots of war. But also love, and that love is so powerful, it makes life worth living. It makes it worth it.

When we are in these depths of the darkness that life brings us to, we are buried deep within our souls. Our sparks can become extinguished, our oil burnt out. It is during these times we are planting seeds of resentment, bitterness, jealousy and fear because we are not healed, we are not centered within the medicine wheel.. Passing these seeds down for generations, harvesting generations of tares pretending to be wheat. Generations of men who call themselves righteous, while oppressing their neighbors. Generations of men who claim property on women, yet beat them black and blue behind closed doors. Generations of women who demand respect and love, yet turn blind eyes to sexual abuses, addictions, and bullying.

We root through that darkness we find ourselves surrounded by once we chose to truly walk this journey of life, clawing through this darkness often times causing more trauma in the process. But trauma that had to happen. Trauma that triggered opportunities for life to continue, opportunities to heal, forgive, move forward and release what isn't of The Creator. To release anything that isn't meant to strengthen our faith, build our foundations, or establish a clear identity of our authentic self.

Repentance is bathed in generational trauma and for many, in the blood of genocide.

Victoria Dellapaolera
Victoria Dellapaolera

Victoria is a Christian minister practicing spiritual healing and development in Williston, North Dakota. Victoria has worked with horses her entire life, and has learned many of her healing techniques from the horses.

She graduated from West Virginia University in 2020 Magna Cum Laude with a bachelors degree in Human Services and Sports and Exercise Psychology; gaining her associates degree in Farm and Ranch Management and Equitation from Dawson Community College in Glendive, Montana in 2012.

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