It can become hard to overcome the burdens that weigh on our hearts during these heavy times. When the energy around us becomes stagnant, and dead in spirit and free from light.
When the world around us grows in wickedness and toxicity, this is when our discipline and daily practices support us. When I made some hard changes in my spiritual routine (which occurred shortly into my practice in the winter of 2018) I took some aspects seriously in my spiritual journey.
I fasted in private, and I kept my visions to myself. Why? Because they were sacred to me, and nobody asked. I stopped sharing unless others were mindful enough to ask how I was doing, and over time the fruits of my friendships began to appear, and I realized who were my friends, and who just liked what I provided to them.
I began to walk this path on an even more narrow path, until I was required to address more rotten fruit in my inner circle. This rot was consuming me and my energy, because I was so triggered by the experience, I was allowing it to become my energy. Just like a rotten fruit in the basket will rot the entire basket, I prayed and hoped that the friendship wouldn't die; but it did, and the rotten fruit fell away.
With it fell many if not all, because that's how toxic people do. That's what hurt people do, they hurt people. While I focused just on me, learning from my past and trying to keep my mess to myself, I learned that either I am the most repulsive person on the planet, and my fruit is the most rotten; or this path has just gotten too difficult for me to walk while carrying the burdens of others too.
When in tribulation or turmoil, it's never going to be an external person who can resolve the root of this issue. Nobody else can cleanse the temple within, except for YOU. YOU must chose to live in such a way, that we provide fuel for the light within. We must daily live in alignment with the light needed to radiate through our homes, communities, and nations.
You must choose to cleanse your energy, to cleanse your robe in tribulation turning your past experiences, traumas, abuses, and memories into lessons that allow you to grow in wisdom, and in faith.