Some days just suck.
Last night was one of those days. The constant stress, pressures to succeed and be "good enough" broke me. And the worse part about that, was it broke my husband too because I lashed out at him.
We are a team and when times get rough, that is when we have to remember that more than ever.
Nobody is perfect, me included!! Being a shaman doesn't mean I am in perfect control of everything at all times. For me, it feels like my life is just organized chaos!!
I struggle with managing my anger and stress. Since the gyms are closed, I haven't been practicing yoga as I had been, and my coping mechanisms are out the window. My anger and my peace from within are at a constant battle. It's important that we recognize the anger within us, as it greatly influences us and allows us to fight for what we believe in. Our anger is tied with our power, but it's important that we learn how to manage our anger, so it doesn't lash out and hurt others.
In my chakra membership group we are discussing our solar plexus chakra, and I've been spending so much time on it, as through the last 27 years of my life I have struggled with my anger and stress. (These two together man... it's enough to make your stomach ache...)
But during these times when life is getting stressful, it's important that we turn into ourselves. We remember our power, our wisdom and our beauty. To stay resistant to the negative thoughts in our head, and stay grounded to reality. I understand my anger, I feel my anger. Today, I am working on releasing my disappointments and accepting and loving all aspects of myself. My anger included!!
Everything is connected. Every breath we take, we are connected. Connected to God, connected to the Creator, connected to the Universe, to the Earth, to everything and everyone- including spirit. (I feel like I talked about this exact thing last week lol)
But we are truly connected. And by taking care of our spirits, we can actually help everyone heal. By taking care of ourselves, we are taking care of our kids, our spouses, our friends and our neighbors.
Take a day, relax and take care of yourself. Allow your stresses to wait until tomorrow and begin to tend to your soul.
Because once we have tended to our souls, we understand our purpose and we can redirect the anger, stress and anxiety we feel in our lives into something positive and progressive for change and growth. But to do so, we can't be caught in the middle. We have to find our balance and nurture that balance, that inner peace. Because once we do, the power that comes with it is unstoppable.